Today...

Today... I feel tired. Tired & unmotivated. Unmotivated when I need to be motivating. I have hit a wall today, most of me is on the floor. Today... I need encouragement, strength, focus. This past week has been difficult, left me a little bitter in a lot of ways. Empty when I should be full, joy surrounds me... new beginnings, new life growing, renewed sense self. Yet the mornings have been hard. Hard to open my eyes, to focus, to think, to organize, to go. Thank goodness for my husband. My husband, who has picked up the slack this week when I. just. could. not. get. out. of. bed. to get school going or at night after a long day, finishing up homework, giving baths, picking up where I just couldn't start. For him, I am thankful, grateful. Grateful to have him to lean on in times of need. I have someone, for that I am grateful. I have family & friends, so loving & understanding, no judgement. I will pull myself off the floor, I will motivate, the joy will return, the bad taste in my mouth will go away, my eyes will open, it will all fall into place. I have someone who believes in me, loves me, respects me, trusts me, who'd give his life to save mine. Love is motivation, I love him, I will put the floor beneath my feet and start moving. Chin up, sun on my face, light in my eyes. You should always, "Be who you are & say what you feel because those who mind don't matter & those who matter don't mind." ~ Dr. Seuss

I will jump in feet first...